Indecision

I've been playing with the idea of a new job. I've actually been doing this for awhile, since my current job isn't much fun anymore. To be quite honest though, the reason I haven't pulled out the newspapers, scanned the internet, or called any connections, is because, well, I'm a bit scared. I've held very few jobs, and got them very easily. The idea of going out and getting a new one, with people I don't know, from scratch, is daunting. I'm also very good at what I do. It's the reason I have "Specialist" at the end of my title. To transfer elsewhere and be a starter at something would be frustrating. I know everything here, I know where everything is, I know who all the faces are, and I know what I am going to do or where I'm going to go. Changing this up scares me to bits. I need to do it, and the sooner the better, but every time I check a listing I get nervous. I get nervous that I'll find a position I like and miss out on it. Or that I won't find anything that works. I get nervous about everything! I have another person to think about at this point in my life too. I have to take into account the fact that a far away job means moving him too. I have to try to find something here. Or, if the ideal dream job does comes along, I need to deal with the task of moving us both somewhere else. And I've been here for 20 years in this town! That itself gets me upset. I figure I just need to jump in at some point. Really look, and get my hands dirty. I am thankful to be employed right now, though. And the job isn't too terrible. But if I want a change, I have to create it myself. We'll see how far I get....